Coly23 - Just a thought on "spinning". I'm wasn't completely sure what you meant by it originally but I think I might now.
Back in September I fell ill and had a high fever. As I lay there in bed terrified and alone, different scenarios involving W and her family kept running over and over through my brain - as if the same short video kept playing but with minor changes and I was stuck in it playing a part. My IC had given me some "mindfulness tools". First I had to recognize that what was going through my brain wasn't real and wasn't happening and that it was just thoughts spinning around. Then I used a mental image of a scrub brush as if I was scrubbing the film from the mental TV and putting it aside. I also tried Monty Python screen transitions but that didn't work as well for me. I do like scrubbing and making things clean though. It didn't work for long but I did get better and better at it and by the second day when I started feeling better I could actually focus on things.
I don't know if this is the sort of "spinning" you are having but if so, maybe a similar compartmentalizing then conscious removal may work for you.
Take care and gobble some turkey for me.
On BD H52, W50 T27, M26 S21, D23 BD-9-Mar-16 D-15-Jan-18 Final-19-Apr-18 I am a storyteller. The story may do you no good. But a story is never for the listener. It is always for the one who tells
