{{{{{kitti}}}}} Right there with you... my anniversary was so much harder than I thought it would be... I think the emotions rise up just a bit, even if we don't want them to. H moved out a year ago on the 30th... I remember it well. Those memories don't do me any good at all. I think you have to do a memory overlay... make good memories this year to think about, and to think about next year. Do for you.
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.