MLC H at age 32, maybe single mum with a toddler S

[Maybe]

Thanks Andrew and Jag2000. I agree that I am not doing well detaching. I found myself not looking into his eyes when we talked because I think I might give myself away if I do. How do you detach when you see S every other day? Please do share your ideas?

And yes, my GAL is perhaps all smoke and not much inside me had changed.... I feel very sad and frustrated at how much I want to change and how much I am not changing. I got a new job. Before BD I was a full time mum. I befriended another mum whom I meet 2 or 3 times a week for activities. I joined a yoga club but had to stop after starting my new job. I meet with people to do language exchange (I am learning Japanese) whenever I can). I see a psychologist once a fortnight but she's not solution oriented. I keep seeing her because she's more affordable. But I don't have family or other friends. I feel very lonely and sorry for myself. I need goals.

New goals:
1. start exercising again at least twice a week
2. Reconnecting with old friends
3. Make more plans for me and my son.

I am not reading a lot of other people's thread because I can only browse on my phone after my son falls asleep. He's sick a lot being his first year in kinder. It's also hard to GAL with a toddler. And I can hardly think sometimes...