I was leaving her house tonight. I picked up some 'dishes' she had made for my family for Thanksgiving holiday. She called earlier today 'just to talk'. She called Sunday, when I had care of our son 'just to talk'. She says I love you quite regularly now. She sends me emails which have no point. She has begun texting on an interest level in the past few weeks to where I end it just because I don't feel like it. She makes me food...tonight she gave me a bunch of food she made for me to eat, not just what she made for my family. Third time in three weeks she has made food just for me. Tonight she made a joke about her brother, its his birthday and he got outted on having an affair a few days ago, and her joke was "I bet you don't want a divorce for you birthday". I didn't laugh, i felt like I should have walked out when she said it, but I have gotten beyond that childish display of anger and instead just looked her for a moment and changed the conversation. So, I was leaving her house tonight, and I just felt like she was a woman I am simply interested in (granted, in a deep way) and that all of the above did not much matter beyond other things which happened in my day.
I know that is has been asked...Maybe you've answered, maybe you haven't....
What do YOU want CT ?
What are you working toward now ??
What does reconciliation look like to you ??
What signs would you have to have ??
A little something to chew on tomorrow....
Originally Posted By: CT1118
I love that I love me, I love my self, I am not done, but I am so very much closer than I ever have been before - as in my entire life. I still love her, maybe shouldn't, but to quote "deserve's got nothing to do with it". I am more than the sum of my parts. I love that I am the man she would be a fool to walk away from, and I love that this does not matter to me. The real DB should speak to realizing that I am the self I would be a fool to ignore. I am not that foolish, I am me, the best I have, still not the best I will be.
I think that's a pretty good description of what DBing entails...
And a dayum good place to be...
Enjoy your Thanksgiving CT....for there is an abundance to be thankful for....
