pib - thank you so much for doing your daily checks on me! i have been keeping up, just no time to post recently hardly - but i see your doing well - and bravo with how you handled the whole 'confrontation' with your hubby!!! and i also see you been keeping up with the exercise - GO YOU!!!
pam - i know - i know - post my positives, i really should get back to doing that - it really helps my day get way more focused when i do - thanks for the visit
h2h - i have been reading with interest your responses especially with totally shocked, and i gotta say you sound like a veteran db'r even if you haven't been at this all that long - your doing great - keep it up!!!
totally - thanks for the kudo's on the weight, i am still at the 4.5 pounds, but that's ok - the exercise is helping quite a bit!!! i have some words for you - will be visiting your thread sometime today
deb - are you kidding girl, just a visit from you in my thread is a pearl!!! you are amazing - your life is getting on track - i gotta sprint just to keep up!!!
holdingon - i miss you, but been reading you, and you sound like you are getting better all the time. i will be stopping by your thread later today
kaw - i truly think i am developing this skill The trick, too, is keep the nurturing in balance and not to make it overbearing - slowly but surely. this is a hard one for me cause one of the things right after the bomb that my hubby said to me was that i never showed that i was IN LOVE with him. i have been having trouble with that one - you know, like how do you show your IN LOVE with someone? i am figuring this all out, and i am pleased with the results...
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JOURNALING
had a really rough patch on tuesday, thanks to betsey for talking me thru it. it made me realize that i am not completely 'over it' but it also let me know that i have changed QUITE A BIT from that old self. nothing happened between hubby and i, i refused to confront because i decided it was just a case of 'stinkin thinkin' and i let it go
also, been talking with a few posters about 'wild at heart' - this too seems to have an effect on me and i haven't even read it yet
like i was telling someone - i have FINALLY gotten to the place that i am not blaming myself anymore for my husbands infidelity - and now this book comes about and it seems like i might have more things i need to get thru.
not that i am perfect and beyond growing - just in that i don't really feel like blaming myself anymore for hubby's sins. but i gotta consider it growth on my part and just muddle thru it. so i am gonna get the book and read it...
other than that, things are going around here. we are not moving backwards, so that must mean we are moving forward.
hubby is in one of his 'down' periods that manic depressive people go thru - he only likes his cave at this point so i am letting him have his time
been dreaming lately of us being 'intimate' - don't know why, except for the fact that he is allowing me a lot more touching than he has in the past. still this is on his time table
well folks - that is all for now - with computer issues, and busy spring cleaning, i haven't been on much - but i should try to at least post my positives - it helps me focus
i love this...
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
