Still lost, still confused (part 2)

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For me, I have since day 1 said that to me (my feelings and thoughts) that once divorce happens it's over forever. I know many on here still work on themselves in hopes that they will have a new, better relationship with their former spouse but I am not one of them.

How does it look different? Once divorced, she will be the woman I impregnated twice. That's it. Nothing else. Not a friend. Not an acquaintance. Nothing but the woman who happens to be linked by kids. I get the whole "mother of my children" part. That's why I have been so respectful and flexible and patient. But if I am not treated with respect as "father of her children" then she will not get respect from me.

4 therapists were in shock on what I've dealt with and each but the last 1 suggested I run....fast! I didn't. But at some point, you stop allowing someone to disrespect you and your boundaries.

So what will be different after divorce? Everything. No friend. No coldness from me but complete and utter disinterest. The legal documents will say what can and cannot happen and those would be followed to a T. Legally binding and agreed by both.