blu, thanks so much for that post. I think I've ready it about 10 times.
Reading that I look back at my interactions with W, Idk I'd like to think I've kept my actions pretty consistent by not letting her see my emotions that go up and down with her rollercoaster.
I've been doing a lot of thinking, those feelings...and emotions of not being good enough are returning. I am assuming it's because of the hope that was thrown my way yet W is still seeing OW and living that life. The difference is, I know i'm a better person. So why do I still have these thoughts and feelings?
W texted me just now- do you hate me?
first of all, why does she care? second of all, what the heck am I supposed to say to that. third, why would I hate her? a few days ago we were talking about counseling and today, that?
Also, does my W need validation? all throughout the past week she "poured" her heart out and told me she loves and misses me blah blah I never once told her I loved her, missed her or anything mushy. Is this why she's so worried about me hating her?
cloudy and snowy today. usually this weather makes me happy. feeling blah today though.
