Hanging on and hoping for the best

[BillyHo]

So last night before I went up to bed I told her we need to talk at some point about what furniture you are taking so I can buy new stuff to replace it. About 5 min later she came up and payed on the bed next to me. We talked about it and it morphed into a convo about what this S is. She said she is not looking to date or find a new man. She said that she started having these feelings of not being fulfilled for a couple of years. (1st time she said this). She seems to think she needs the S to see if she is happy on her own. She says that I shouldn't worry about not seeing the boys as much because they can come over if they wasn't even when they are with her.

She seems like she wants to be friendly and see what happens. I am still going to stay pulled back from her but it is so hard to know what to do once she's gone. We will see each other all the time. I just hope she has a chance to miss me. She said we should meet with our discernment C after a month apart and see if we should try that process again.

Do I keep being friendly with her while still not pursuing? I want to be the lighthouse for her. She has never really been mean or spewed at me since this started. She has always maintained that she is confused and just doesn't know what she wants.

I am doing well with GAL and being prepared to move on. I just hope that at some point I get the chance to date my W again and let her see the new man I'm becoming.