Cherry. Just trying to get on with life

[Cherry]

Thank you guys for the constant support. I think you're all so right, GAL really is the key to healing. It's become less of a conscious effort these days too, in the start it kinda felt like "ok let me drag myself out and do this". Whereas now, I just seem to fill up my diary of things to do without a thought, this is more of the old me.

CT, you are so right. I have chosen to be married to me right now. I'm doing more things for myself, looking after me. I guess the easy way is to put the final nail in and say I'm done and move on to finding someone else. But in truth, I really don't want that. Maybe I'm at the next stage of mourning a r but I find myself in confusion that while I know deep down I love my h, I am also extremely hurt and angry at the way me and our family, our innocent children have been treated and I don't know if I could go back there. I'm trying not to dwell on that, as that could well be something that never even happens. But I now see that I have moved to a place where I think "you know, you have really treated me like $h!t and that's not okay, I'm worth more than that". And this has took me a very very long time to arrive there.