Jeez, Kitti--You never fail to get me in places I thought were safe. I'm glad to know that you've been busy healing and analyzing. You were really missed when you were in CA, you know.

Get in one of my chats? So now you want to be the last nail in my employment coffin? I should have posted what Merrick appreciated as my own #1! You tell me when you need a hen chat, and I'll indulge.

Before I proceed, how about a cheer for a date between you and your H? How wonderful! Sometimes the stars align themselves right, and you get the chance to get what you really need and want anyway. Divine intervention at its best, because you weren't jamming your own will into things.

Now, on to weight loss and fear of success. Damn, girl, 60 lbs is a HUGE accomplishment. IF you are afraid of becoming a success in your own eyes, I'm afraid that this trail has been blazed many, many times. You walk with a lot of company.

I have a little bit of that person in me as well. Mostly the past version of me, but it's present nonetheless.

You realize that half of the battle is recognizing your own sabotaging efforts, right? I had to commit to my own path as well. I'm down 18 with 15 to go. And the day that I became at peace with that process (ironically, the day I signed up, because I was committed) was the one where I said, "If you cheat, you are only cheating yourself. You deserve this, so make sure you take this seriously."

I will report that I do indulge myself (this past weekend's over indulgence in Murphy's Red speaks loudly). I primarily have a bite of D7's brownie or a spoonful of her ice cream. But I don't allow myself to feel sorry for myself and offer myself an exception "just because".

It's my thinking that changed more than anything. I quit seeing myself as a victim. That's when I started seeing the big changes...

I sense the same kind of metamorphosis here, Kitti Cat.

A big hug to you. And thanks for your appreciation at "our" place.

Bets

"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."

Albert Einstein