totally - ah, dropping the rope, well girlfriend, i am gonna have to look it up here on the bb because there is an excellent description of it, and i just couldn't do it justice, so give me some time and i will post it on your thread ok??? thank you so much for the kind words, hope this finds you well
pib - my partner in crime!!! hey girlfriend, i like the idea of a little support with the whole weight loss thing, i am so IN THE ZONE, and you know as well as i pib, that once your in the zone - truly in it - nothing can stop you, so girl, GET THERE!!! did you swim for 15 minutes today????
bets - girl, how does one get in on your infamous chats? i don't want advice from any one of you, i just would LOVE to be a fly on the wall in one of your hen parties!!! thanks for visiting, alas, i haven't posted positives lately, not cause i don't have any - it's just that i been too stinking busy with LIFE!!!
alaskangirl - you are a hoot, did you know that???? i am SO proud of you for the quitting smoking thing...i gotta pull something up from somewhere that says what each minute, hour, day, week, month, year does for your body the longer you stay not smoking...i got homework - check - alaskangirl needs the smoking thing and totally needs the dropping the rope thing
holdingon - my helicopter pilot friend ... how are things with you??? i miss our chats, but as i explained in an email to you, i am in a different place and not able to spend a lot of time on the computer as once did - but i miss you!!! i just KNOW you will get it, just be patient with yourself
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wanted to mention ONE positive i thought was interesting...this weekend is the weekend i take the boys to see their mother, so they wont be around. well, my hubby said, why don't we take daughter to the "fountain" this weekend and i said hey, that sounds like a great idea (she loves it there) - well - my sil called and wanted her this weekend to go see disney on ice, so i called hubby and told him plans had changed that daughter was gonna be gone, and he said, oh drats, well let's go anyway...
um hello??? just you and me??? i tried desperately not to sound SHOCKED so i just let out a "sure, sounds good!!!" LOL - after i hung up, i laughed my butt off...and started singing, he'll be coming around the mountain when he comes!!! LOL
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JOURNALING
Quote: But I don't care anymore what people think of how unusual my situation is. It is working for us, and allowing two people who love each other very much to remain ineach other's lives in a way that doesn't hurt, but enhances both of those lives.
this was a profound statement in the last bets thread made by myhrr that i just had to write down here - been trying to wrap my mind around this for a couple of months now, and it CLICKED for me with those simple words - thank you myhrr
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ASKING FOR HELP
in light of the "honesty" thread, (bets) - i am coming to the board for help - not really help, but a discussion of sorts
as most of you know, i have lost 60 pounds since dec 2002 - what is the sad thing is that i lost it all by july of 2003 (no - NOT because of the bomb, i had started 6 months before the bomb) and have stayed pretty much stagnet since then
i only have 30 more pounds to go, but i seem to have hit a "limit" and i can't seem to break it. i have flucuated in this 8 pound range up and down since july
i know what it is. after listening to more brian tracy, i know that it is a "limiting factor" - i have placed a limit on myself from getting any thinner - for what reason i ask?
hmmmm - as most oldtimers around here know about me, my life was pretty much sucky - and i looked back over the last couple of weeks and realized that everytime i was "thin" i was in trouble. i am coming to realize that i had it in my mind that being thing meant being taken advantage of. (thanks pib for insight on this based on your work sitch)
i have a feeling that i have limited myself from getting any thinner cause i am afraid of the outcome. i am afraid of things happening to me. but what is stupid, is that i am so much older and so much wiser that i shouldn't be here at this place
i so deserve to be a raving beauty - and yet, something is stopping me. i sabotage myself each time i get to a certain weight and it goes back up, but then it hits this one place and i am smart enough to say, I WILL NOT GET THAT BIG AGAIN and i lose it, but i can't seem to break that "limit"
ok, so the first part of healing is knowing right? i know it, and it really came to me on sunday - that for whatever reason i was gonna get past this "limit"
then i started realizing other parts of my life are similar...could it be that i am afraid of success??? oh gosh, that is a deep one. what are the "limits" i set on myself to not reach that point where perserverence turns into realization of a goal?
gosh people, i have lots to work on still - now that i got this "r" thing handled - i can REALLY go to work on me. i am sick and tired of settling for second best - i deserve the best the world has to offer and by george, i am going after it
that is all for now...stay tuned as the metamorphesis of kitti takes place
