She moved out...now the work begins...II

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Having a difficult time...my W keeps sending me pics of our kids having a good time and telling me that they are all doing well and having fun. While I am glad to see the pics and hear that they are doing good...it hurts. It hurts that I am not with them. It hurts that she is not more understanding as to how hard it is for me to not be there with them. It just hurts because I want nothing more than to be there as their dad and as her husband. It effing hurts.

I have enjoyed a relaxing weekend...watched football, did my house chores, had a couple of nice meals with my father, but also had to discuss the D with him as well. So, that kind of brought me back down to reality. I also received several texts from friends checking on me to make sure I am doing ok since they know the situation. I know I am suppose to fake it until I make it, but it is hard to keep my chin up all of the time.

My FIL invited me to dinner tonight and I am torn about going. I don't want it to turn into a pitty party. He is not in agreement with what my W is doing regarding the impending D, but as we all know...there is nothing he can do about it.