Not as sad -Take 3- but still on the Rollercoaster

[Molly22]

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2714118&page=11

Thread 3.

You know, I've read the books a few times and I've read every thread here. I still don't know whether I should be doing the 180, going dark, LRT or what. I was definitely he begging and pleading one. I get that that this stuff is for me but I was hoping for the side benefit of him noticing and there really is nothing. He asked today if he could spend Xmas day with the kids and I. I really don't know if I want him to. He's been on, at least, one date and I feel like I was nothing

GALing like crazy but I'm lonely. I miss hugs
And sex.

[Natus]

I guess on the xmas thing you can say you need to think about it for now and let him know at a later date.

I find i need to mull over things for days to know what i trully want or am comfortable with.

Its heavy, this is my first xmas without W too.

[Maybe]

Hi Molly,

Glad to hear you are missing the intimacy with your WH. I am a bit mad at myself for feeling that. How can we miss being close to someone whom betray us? I was also dreaming about him lately. And if I do, the next day will be a very down day. I guess this is all part of the healing. We should trust the process and let the heart wants what the heart wants? But let the brain stop us showing this to the idiots that walked out on their families....

[Molly22]

I had to block him this morning. He is just being mean and I don't want to listen to it anymore today.

What do we do with the need for physical touch? I try and go for massages but that doesn't help really. Ideas?

[doodler]

What do we do with the need for physical touch? I try and go for massages but that doesn't help really. Ideas?

Moll22,

Hell yes, I have plenty of ideas, but none of them are appropriate, at least not on this forum. I can sympathize with you though; I know what you're going through.

[Molly22]

This is not my year.

The police showed up at my work today. My mom's body was found in her apartment. She was only 64. No idea yet why she died but she died on her birthday. My heart aches. I feel lost
And like I haven't got much left to give.

[hawker]

I am so sorry Molly!!! Ugh you have a lot to give your children! Hang in there!!

[j20a00g]

Oh no!!! Molly that is horrible. Please stay strong at take extra care of yourself.

[Molly22]

I'm tired and long for the man whom I thought loved me.

[Molly22]

You know your WS is done with you when you are are bawling and hurting after such a loss and he goes home.