You know, I've read the books a few times and I've read every thread here. I still don't know whether I should be doing the 180, going dark, LRT or what. I was definitely he begging and pleading one. I get that that this stuff is for me but I was hoping for the side benefit of him noticing and there really is nothing. He asked today if he could spend Xmas day with the kids and I. I really don't know if I want him to. He's been on, at least, one date and I feel like I was nothing
GALing like crazy but I'm lonely. I miss hugs And sex.
