Bright - lol, you and a few others have said h will be back, I really can't see it myself, but who knows, It will probably be after he has had a few more failed relationships and not found "the one" and is bald, fat and lonely ha ha ha
My list of 3 to get me started off again - Car, Job and Home
Last Monday was a car, I love it, its off to the garage this week to have a full service and get is WOF (warrant of Fitness certificate). She (yes, her name is bob, don't judge lol) has taken me to the beach several times this week and I am enjoying the freedom that she gives me.
Today (Monday) I have been offered a job !!! So excited and feel like my angels have been watching over me and trying to get me to see this was the plan all along. I interviewed last week and thought I had really messed it up but coming across as too independent and not enough team, but seems I was wrong. So my new job is Customer Service (retail sales) at an Event and Party hire store, its all Fun Fun Fun and Balloons lol. I have to learn balloon art and all about event equipment, decorations, the store is party central. The pay is not great, but its mon - fri daytime which is what I want and its a cool job for my cv ha ha.
So Universe, no pressure, but next Monday I expect to find a cute little home by the beach
Now I have a job everything feels fine again in my world, its the smallest thing yet the biggest. I am doing great, I had a few down days last week over h and then a few down days over my life turning to custard, but the last few days I have seen my sitch so differently. I was so scared of changing things in my life because they gave me security, and as miserable as I was, I stuck with things out of fear of change and getting it wrong (including h) H arriving and turning my world Topsy Turvey has forced me in to change and so far I have ended up with a clearer outlook on who I am and want to be, a better car and a better job and I just know a more affordable lovely home is waiting for me. I have learnt so much by h being here, seeing his crazy with new eyes, understanding it so much more this time. I really am fine and life is going to be good, I feel it. Despite everything that has happened I would not change it, I needed him to do this to me for me to drop the rope. I don't have contact, I don't know where he is, I don't often think about him, its like my own fog has been lifted.
I spent the afternoon at the beach reading my book and paddling in the sea, I took a picnic, it was really lovely and so me. Tomorrow I am going beach combing with the g/friend and we are going to have fish and chips for lunch, yum.
Love n hugs to all of you BDers out there, you are amazing, beautiful people. Thanks for your support, I will try and catch up on everyone's threads now I am back in the land of internet xoxo
