Cherry. Just trying to get on with life

[CT1118]

Thanks CT! That's really nice of you to say. It's encouraging that people think I'm doing good, despite my m being none existent! I thing what gets to me at times that I've failed at saving my m. I am the kind of person who is determined to put my all into something, work hard and succeed. So to attempt to db and my m still fail sometimes gets to me. I'm becoming to get more peace and acceptance in this. My goal has shifted to now being the best mum I can be!

We are more than the sum of our parts. That is something I certainly learned here. And we are more than our M's. So you did not fail at your M (if it indeed is done and has failed, which not quite). But even if it falls apart - you succeeded at being you. I did too. My IC told me once, I was speaking to her about how I could have chosen to walk away, to meet new people, to date, but I was choosing me instead.She responded by saying "So you decided to be married to you?" I looked at her for a moment and finally said "Yes. Yes, I think that's it. That's exactly it." So Cherry, if you are married to you, you can DB that, and you have. By going thru DB we all chose not to let our most important relationship fail - the one with ourselves.

I am glad you had a great time with your friend last night. The R your WH is missing out on with his child is indeed a burden he will come to feel one day. That is his problem, and I know nothing about you which makes me doubt the futre version of Cherry knowing how/when/what to say to both children about how to carry themselves with or without dad. I am sure present Cherry trusts future Cherry as well. Hey! Tomorrow is Monday right - start of a brand new week . See you in the future when we get there.