Cherry. Just trying to get on with life

[Cherry]

Thanks CT! That's really nice of you to say. It's encouraging that people think I'm doing good, despite my m being none existent! I thing what gets to me at times that I've failed at saving my m. I am the kind of person who is determined to put my all into something, work hard and succeed. So to attempt to db and my m still fail sometimes gets to me. I'm becoming to get more peace and acceptance in this. My goal has shifted to now being the best mum I can be!

Had a good weekend, lovely evening out with my girlfriend, lots of laughs and just feeling I can be myself, no awkward conversations no needing to discuss my r. Just enjoying one another's company. Today took S out to a national park, lovely walk and fresh air. Met my parents and sister there, S enjoyed running round with a football with his grandad, and saw lots of animals like deers. Didn't hear a thing from wh all weekend. I don't particularly expect anything of him, but it does anger me at times that he doesn't want to see his child. But still, at the end of the day- he is missing out on such exciting years. The early years which will shape him as a person.