Hey, all! Thank you so much for stopping in. I offered virtual beer and pumpkin cheesecake to everyone over in the Surviving forum, so the offer is extended here, too.
bttrfly, it surprisingly wasn't stressful. More...interesting. I guess I'm somewhat detached at this point. And curious.
By the way, after my hike this morning, I found that I had a missed call from XH. I double-checked my phone. I haven't received an actual call from him since...a month ago? A month and a half? Anyway, I returned the call and he explained he was trying to call my D and Siri dialed me, so he tried to hang up as fast as he could. That created a funny picture in my head so I laughed and he ended up talking (me listening...learned my lesson!) for over an hour. Then he received a call and said he'd call me back. 10 min later I was on the phone for another 45 min, listening. He did ask about me a bit. It was nice, but I still feel detached, though. I've been here before. It means nothing.
Sotto, I hear you on the having to go through the rough stuff to grow. I realize from what XH was telling me today that his stuff is going to get worse...and soon. From work to his family (FOO), his R with me is actually the least of his worries. I feel I should make sure I am not a worry, just that lighthouse; that person that will accept his calls when he needs a friend.
Esame, just remember its hard for someone to not make eye contact eventually with a person who is smiling and looking at them as they talk. Especially if they are agreeing with their feelings (not necessarily their actions). I've been somewhat relentless with this. Even when XH was growling at me or refusing to acknowledge my existence.
Its a h&ll of a long uphill hike, but eventually you come back down and that is easier. I'm very fond of challenging hikes.It gets those endorphins flowing! I'm just going to keep repeating, "it gets better".
M-51 H-54 2D-27 and 25 M-26 yrs Bombshell and IHS 7-29-15 He moved out 10-3-15 D filed 1-27-16 D final 10-27-16
