She moved out...now the work begins...II

[SBJ]

roist...I totally understand that that is true at this point. Things are still so new and raw right now. I'm trying to figure out how I'm going to drop the rope that I maybe think that I have held up by myself for so long. Kind of coming to grips with how one sided our M has been for so long hurts. But it also hurts replaying in my mind all that she has said about us. She may have felt negatively for a while, but to say she has felt a certain way for 20 years is just dumb and insulting.

I know that is why we are suppose to fill our time and our minds with new things, but it is still hard to ignore. I promise that I am not making up having a great marriage and a great life. I may have overlooked a couple of things, but we have built a happy life, and it is mind boggling that she is simply able to walk.