Me and Mildlife and...III

[CT1118]

I wonder, what part will I say was hardest years from now? The entire process of getting to where I am now was pretty damn hard. I said before here a while ago, it sounds romantic in movies to tell someone "I would fight hell for you", but you don't expect to actually do it. And then most don't when the time comes, but some do. And when it began, those who did, were not aware, the hell fought would be the one inside them, at least for me it was. And then, it was for no one else but me.

And when I thought it was hardest, I thought detach was home base. And then once I hit detachment, I thought it was forgiveness that held it all. And now what? I say, it is hard. It is damn hard to feel better, to feel free, and to know I could walk away as I see fit, whenever I want, because I have that strength now.

job - yeah, she fired me as her husband. Great term, she did that a while ago. like getting fired from the factory that employed me all my life. Then I went back to school, got a new education, and now I have found a new job. It pays less, but the stress is lower.


For now, I just keep on being me, one day at a time.