I don't think most people can understand our turmoil UNLESS they have experienced it first hand.
This is also why the lbs needs to be careful who he listens to. Advice whilst often well intentioned may not be really in their best interest.
That will be hard to wait to resee your kids. Distract yourself as much as you can. Remember SURVIVE.
Best wishes
R 25 years M 14 years S11 & S13 Working on it alone since Oct 2014 M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years) Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr. Next R chat Aug'17 Still together