Wife had affair now moved out

[Wes25]

I find myself wishing I knew that my M was done for good. Wishing that she wasn't acting like a coward, don't run away from your problems, instead either commit that we are both hurt so it's time to work on it or there is no going back and it's time for us to move on. I'd rather be weak than a coward.

I know the DR is to help me move on as much as its to try and save my M but if I could take the thought of someday she may come around out of my mind then the GAL and detaching would be so much easier.

I hate the rules. Sometimes I think the divorces that end in blowups and hatred have it right. At least they know there is no going back.

I also wish I was that strong person that was steadfast in the if you have sex with another person while married then the marriage is over.

Am I the only one that is suffering with this? Please tell me this is normal.