Struggling

[fightin]

Well it's moving day! Can't go pick up the truck for over an hour so I going to get the little things packed and ready to go.

Last night's experience was weird for me because it was almost like I was watching a movie or something. I wasn't dead inside, but very unemotional. I figured after they left I'd have a break down, but I have a sort of peace about leaving now. I believe this separation is necessary. She's clearly still very confused, or maybe even more confused that she was a week ago and I have no desire to be here when she self destructs. I love her, but I'm okay with letting her go on her own journey. I have my own to take.