Cherry. Just trying to get on with life

[Cherry]

Thanks to all of you for the support. The offer for cravings was a good couple months ago around bd time, when he would phase in and out of talking to me. Recently, he never asks how I'm gettting on or offer to do anything for me. It's absolute radio silence, you wouldn't think we have a child together as he NEVER communicates with me to see how he is. Of course, I don't reach out to him neither. He is very stubborn, so I know if this was ever brought up , he would say "well you don't contact me". The majority of the time, s is fine, he often asks where his dad is but then carries on with his day and moves on to his next question. It's the night time when he's asleep he wakes and gets upset. I hope this will soon start to pass. He knows there is a lot of love for him, there's no doubt about that.

It does appear that ow is out of the picture, so he could be going through withdrawals. However he is still very wayward so he could have another. I won't mind read though. It is his own journey after all, and I know that my concern is myself, and I know that no r with anyone else would be good for me right now.

Surfer, you are absolutely right on not looking back at where I've travelled from. That's only going to lead to old feelings being dragged up and anxiety. I see my goal of the woman I was when I met wh- the free happy woman. Obviously with a few modifications, I've responsibilities now.

I have an evening date with a girlfriend tonight, so I've an opportunity to get glammed up a little and feel good about me and enjoy some good company