MLC H at age 32, maybe single mum with a toddler S

[Maybe]

Thanks Cadet. I agree but am not prepared to think of the outcome. I am scared of hoping. Yet I am devastated to just accept it as it is.

He had our son today coz I was at work. They obviously had a good day but it somehow upset me a bit. I think I feel better when he's not doing well. Even when he's yelling and being unreasonable, I know what to do. But when he's happy and announcing he wants to leave asap, I feel like maybe this is just what he wanted all along: a single life full of excitement and a full time mum of his child who is supportive of him not taking his fatherly responsibilities.

And jag2000, this big can of worms I guess it's mostly to him. Unlike me, when there's a problem, he looks elsewhere hoping the problem will resolve itself. Isn't that how all MLC come about?

I do still want him back. Sometimes when we are talking and laughing, I feel like I am watching an old video of us in our previous life. He was right there, but somehow he's gone. The alien had aducted him. I hope they will return him, even broken. I want my family back. And I want to love him "the right way" this time. I need to re-read DR...