I was hoping they'd stay the night so I could spend a little more time with my SS, but they came home and she starting packing so they could leave tonight to go to her dad's where our travel trailer is.
My SS is back and forth between sad and angry which is understandable, but I hate it for him. He and I will definitely keep in touch though and see each other when I'm in town.
She just kept crying and finally just came over and hugged me for what felt like forever, but it didn't upset me or really make me feel anything at all except confused. She confessed she's been staying over at OW's because it is too hard for her to be around me. She said it is really hard for her see all my stuff packed and she's never been so ashamed of herself in her life. She's so sorry for hurting me, etc.
She kept saying she never imagined this and how hard it is for her, but that she has no right to be upset since she caused this. I told her she's allowed to feel however she truly feels and I validated that I can see this hard for her too. She just replied that she's not even sure how she actually feels right now, just that she's so sorry for everything.
It was nice to be able to just listen, validate and not get upset myself.
She joked as she was leaving that if she gets a deer tomorrow (she's hunting) she'll send me a picture. I just said "ok". I guess she was expecting more because she got a very disappointed look on her face and said "I was just trying to joke around." I said "I know" and smiled. I wasn't cold to her at all, I was short or rude which is very different from the last several interactions we've had.
She said she just wants me to be happy and I replied I will be and I'll be just fine. She said I know you will. I told her I want her to be happy as well to which she just cried more.
Then they left.
Me: 35 W: 32 MR: 2y T: 3.5y SS11 BD: 11/3/16 EA: 10/26/16 PA: 11/11/16 W asks for S/D & ILYBINILWY 11/13/16 Status: I moved out 11/19/16, GAL I filed for D: 12/14/16 D-day: 3/10/17
