Well, last night I learned there is a huge difference between the clarity of knowing where you need to be, and actually being there...
Yesterday was my WW birthday, and I was actually feeling pretty good about things all things considered. But then I let the kids send her a text video singing happy birthday. She responded with a thanks. Then a little later she texted me that her mom invited her up on Saturday (I knew that was going to happen) to spend time with her and the kids. She said she had to work and thought it was a bad idea, but wanted to make sure it was ok with me before even considering it. I validated her on having to work and her fears about going (and likely getting lectured) then said it was ok with me and thanked her for asking. I got no response and still haven't. Im not sure why it bothers me...probably because I know she was likely out with OM and her new friends.
I know that needs to not bother me for me to truly move on. Most days it doesn't. I am hoping the holidays dont trigger similar reactions...but I have a feeling they wont because the kids will be with me.
