NYGal...I imagine it is tough!!! It is hard to let go of the past that was full of so much pain and disbelief someone we love so much could put us through that!!!
I am glad that you and your W still go to MC, I think that is important to work through all of the issues!!!
I am sure it is worth it and I wish I was there...maybe someday, maybe not!
Hang in there!!!
W:42 M:48 T:9 yrs M:1yr BD: Feb 2016 EA Confirmed: Feb 2016/PA July 2016 D: Feb 2017