I read this one late last night and its been eating at me.
I have followed you since I landed on this forum and let me tell you just a few things I have noticed. Dude ..... you have come such a long way from where you were when I joined here ... Like LIGHT YEARS long way. Before I tell you how not old you are like the rest of the wise people before me I would like to point out something. The fact you admit you are struggling with it ... openly sharing it and owning it... HUGE man .. huge. Rather than just be down and depressed about it you brought it to light and now its something you can openly deal with.
Ok .. AGE .... I have a friend, best friend since 4th grade actually. He is in your boat .... thinks he is old/feels old/ I will just say he is "age challenged". Truth is .. he and I are 7 months apart (I am 45). You would not find 2 more polar perspectives about the age. I will tell you this ... he too is a grandfather, poor bastard actually has been a grandfather since he was 37 ... yes at 37. I think THAT alone was the kicker tbh. His grand daughter is almost the same age as my son!!! Maybe look at that and think if that's the source of your "Oh Chit I am old because I am a Grandfather" vibe .... because I am telling you 49 is not old .... in fact you are only as old as you allow yourself to be. But in our lizard brains we associate Grandma/Grandpa as that silverhaired almost can't move around person and we almost program ourselves to be JUST LIKE THAT
I check myself sometimes questioning if in fact I have some MLC going on .. I am 45 and still play softball, football .. DJ 2 gigs a week, drive a motorcycle. Is it denial or is it simply I am living the life I enjoy and refuse to let the age thing mess with me .... know what .. don't care I like my life and I do things that I enjoy.
Tad ... you aren't old... and KUDOS man for spending time with the Wednesday hottie ... another HUGE step for you as I recall when you were just hoping for a little talk here and there ... now its a regular thing ... stud.
