The sorrow of it all

[Dawgs]

Minor update time.

Lately I've been reading the threads in this great forum. Lot of awesome help here! I want to once again give a shout out to all the help I've received during my crisis time.

There is absolutely nothing left of the old ex anymore. Nothing. Our relationship centers around the kids now. She has completely washed her hands on the marriage and anything to do with it. But now, I'm ok with that. Oh, she is friendly and there are flashes of how she used to be when we were dating, but that's it. I no longer trust anything she says, either. But she does have her moments.

My focus is solely on the kids and me. Have been working out much more and haven't been in this great of shape since my 30's. Did a recent 5k in 21 flat! Have also put on a good bit of muscle, too. I feel spectacular. I have really gotten back into my hobbies (well, as much as I can after the kids go to sleep, but that's ok). I'm not going out as much as I'd like, but that's ok, too. I'm in a great, great place now. And very happy. Well, as happy as one can be considering.

Now, for the newly oft-talked about Harley. Our coms have increased to fairly regularly now and she will be making a visit come December. Looks like the final questions will be answered. Am both nervous and scared about that, but I guess that's to be expected. She coordinated her time to coincide with the week that the kids will be at their moms...so she will be here for four days. I must say that I was shocked and surprised.

Honestly, I'm not sure what I want to come out of this. We had an in-depth discussion of my marriage/divorce and she knows it all. She never rubbed it in about my ex's infidelity - not once, instead it was more like a sorry you went through that type of thing.

Maybe she is coming to finally find out. If we pick up where we left off, then maybe that's what should have been all along. Oh, and she is coming alone - when I asked about the someone she wanted me to meet, she said that was for another time.