The sun will rise for a new day

[ATPeace]

Hi roist

Well I guess I am trying to live in the moment not look too far ahead

For the first time in a long time I am actually feeling that I will be ok no matter what and when it happens

I still find myself apologising something she rarely does for just about anything that I have done that upsets her feelings

I plan to start stepping up my gal there have been some local meet up groups that have interested me and I will look to start going out more

I know I am still hugely attached as I still get upset by her actions or if she goes out then I wonder what she is doing ...even tho I know she says she is not looking for someone else ..I cannot help wondering what she is doing ....

So she has not been intimate with me since bomb date yet the day before she told me she loved me now she tells me she was abused by me in our marriage...yet she has made no attempt to escape from her abuser she still lives with me and we get along .

I still care about Her I wish I could move on from her I know this will happen much easier when we are in different homes yet she still is not doing anything about this ....she is expecting me to do this ....Ishe wanted to break up it should be her making the decision to sell yet she has done nothing

I am feeling ok

Ghost