Cherry. Just trying to get on with life

[Cherry]

Thanks RB, I feel I'm getting there- if anything I feel, it's probably more anger and frustration. But I am getting on with things, it's just his occasional comments he makes to his mom about how she chose me over him, like a spoilt child he is clearly resentful towards me. His issues and his spew, this week- this is his reason, who knows what next week will be.

I am getting on okay though, I've been getting some renovations done, redecorating. I've accidentally refurnished my entire room. It now feels like my space rather than the MBR. I'm getting on good at work, and starting to train people who will cover me on my maternity. I've also started getting a lot more things ready for the baby. I feel I am in control of a lot. The majority of the time, my S is a happy boy. I do my best I can, I work a 10 hour shift and get home and bath him, tuck him up and read him his story. On days off we often go out and do fun things together. I've been determined to take back control where possible.

I truly hope my children will grow up to learn this was never what I wanted, but I busted a gut to work to provide a decent living and when not in work, I was there for them. Being a single parent was never in my plans, but it is what it is, so I have to put them first and do the best I can.