The sorrow of it all

[Dawgs]

I'm glad you mentioned the universe and signs. Some people say God. It's all good. YES, the universe talks to us all the time. Most people ignore signs. Once I stopped ignoring them and follow the signs, the worm definitely turned in my favor.

Signs.

Have been thinking about that for a bit since you mentioned it. You're absolutely right, most of us ignore signs. However, maybe its a little more involved than just ignoring. Maybe, its the inexperience, too. Or not knowing how to see them. And maybe its just going with the gut feeling. Or maybe ignoring and hoping that the gut feeling is wrong.

Looking back, all the little things that didn't add up about my ex-wife...all the flags/signs, some of which I ignored and some of which I didn't see until it was too late. I can remember back when we were dating and how she reacted to certain situations and thinking that was odd, but just chalking it up to her idiosyncrasies. Little did I know - or realize - that it was all tied to her abuse. But the signs were there, and I think the question is why didn't I see them or pay attention?

Take Harley for instance. A perfect example of missing signs. They were there, but for some reason I couldn't see how she felt...now I can, but I couldn't back then. A good example is the talk we had about if she should re-up or not. I can remember that day as if it were yesterday - it was rainy and we had the windows open and were watching a move when she brought up the subject - out of the blue. At the time, I didn't put two and two together about her wanting me to ask her to stay. She repeatedly asked what I thought about her re-upping and things like what I'd do or we'd do if she didn't. The signs were all over that conversation. I ended up telling her to do what she thought best. I didn't say stay, but I wanted to. And now I know that's what she so desperately wanted me to say. Sigh. Now I'm being presented with new - and more complex - signs once again.

So you see, signs are always there - IF one chooses to look or believe. But it also isn't as easy as that. I think that part of being in tune with the universe and signs and being able to see them also means that one has to be more in tune with their own self. Maybe that's why I missed a lot back then. I still miss them, but I am getting more in-tune with what's being shown...although at this stage it may be a little too late.