She moved out...now the work begins...II

[SBJ]

Thanks for the support "fightin"...encouragement is needed, but so is the tough talk at times. Guys need the tough talk and a 2x4 sometimes to make things sink in.

I did several things today that I needed to get done.
Separate Checking Acct.
Retained the Attorney...means made payment $$$
Dropped off the Temporary Orders and the D Papers to the Attorney to go over.

Spent some time trying to figure out what stage that I'm in.
I think I'm past the denial (mostly).
I'm done bargaining with her.
I am still kind of mad (Anger), but mostly just worried for my kids sanity and for her sanity/safety.
I am occasionally depressed, but it passes if I don't have contact with her.
Maybe I haven't hit the resentment stage and I know I have not hit the acceptance stage, although I feel that I should come to grips and embrace the divorce, so that I can move on, drop the rope, and get a life.
That leaves self-growth, forgiveness, renewal, and living again...I am definitely not there yet.

It is interesting trying to look at things from the outside in. My life right now looks like a bad episode of Days of Our Lives.