Hey Cherry, what a sad sitch. As a father myself I am very lucky in the access I have with my S (50/50) - the thought of him is what drags me through the darkest of times.
If your H can't see what he has / had, (w/respect) I'd say you're better off w/out him. HIS loss not yours!!!!
Chin up
M - 36 / W - 32 S - 3 Together - 18 Yrs / Married - 10 Yrs Bomb Dropped - 4th Sept 2016 Moved out - 4th Sept 2016