Vey detached, no longer anxious, in limbo

[Phoebe]

Thanks, Miss V, Painter, and JRuss, Sotto, and anyone else who I am forgetting. I've kind of been on autopilot as of late. I haven't accomplished much of anything on my chicken project, or really anything else. I had a really nice day yesterday with H-fried, baking and making soap, and then L-friend came over and we had dinner and a nice evening. I also talked to my father on the phone for quite a while and that was really nice, too.

So it was a good day yesterday, and yet I still feel mainly flat. I'm in the process of tapering my AD meds again, so that's probably contributing a bit to the way I'm feeling. I can laugh and enjoy the company of others, but when I'm alone, I just feel really blah.

I'll try to get back here more often and do some more journaling. It's helped me in the past, and I know that it would help me to try to sort out what I've been feeling again. Meanwhile, I have to get myself motivated and outdoors to do some work on my building project. Once I get going, I'm fine, but I notice that it takes much more activation energy for me to get started these days.

Maybe it's the short days, maybe the decreasing meds, maybe the slow-motion legal process, maybe the approaching holidays and all the attendant unpleasant anniversaries that are associated therewith... all of the above? Other things?

Mostly, I am just so tired in so many ways.

Time to motivate... my flock needs me...