Today is a different day and I can feel a difference to the strength I had yesterday. I still feel stronger than I was, but the intensity had subsided.
I still know that I'll be ok, but today I have such sadness about me. Its sad that I was unable to be the man I should have been whilst with my W as this I'm sure would have resolved (and avoided) a lot of these issues.
I have gained an amount of confidence from my weight loss. I can really notice this and so many people have also made comments...
I do wonder if there was some sort of divine intervention here as I'd have never lost weight whilst still 'happily' married. This separation could have saved my life.
Today I have missed the companionship element of my M - I miss having someone who knows me inside out and someone that I can talk to and confide in.
I will however continue to work on myself and look forward to the time I have my S (day off work tomorrow with him - yay). I will continue to better myself for him (and me) and look forward to the new me being strong and content.
Not looking forward to Christmas (which I guess is a sentiment echoed throughout this place). Roll on the New Year!
M - 36 / W - 32 S - 3 Together - 18 Yrs / Married - 10 Yrs Bomb Dropped - 4th Sept 2016 Moved out - 4th Sept 2016
