Cherry. Just trying to get on with life

[Cherry]

Oh no, he was always a great dad, until he went wayward. He would play with him, take him out. Spend his days off with him, then as he started to become wayward he wasn't around much. When he sees him, it is as though he's missed him, but children need much more than an hour, once a week if they are lucky! But yes, I could never fault him on being a great dad. Children of his own was what he always wanted. When pregnant with S, he wanted to be involved in everything, antenatal appointments, sonograms, he'd read up on the development of the baby, constantly want to look after me because "I was carrying his child", speak to the bump so baby would know his voice. And then when he came along, he didn't want anyone to hold S except me and him, he was so protective, he'd be up in the night rocking him back to sleep.

I think that's what makes things harder, knowing he just isn't involved, S obviously doesn't understand why he no longer has the dad he did, and I've the odd reminder that he isn't bothered in the slightest about this baby.