Fightin it’ll take a while to get a decent handle on the emotions, especially around your W. I’m sure once you’re physically separated and don’t live under the same roof you will find it easier.
In the beginning I took it day by day, literally, I’d be so glad at night that I made it one more day. It was a huge accomplishment.
I’m glad you have your family as a support system. A good support system is one of the best things, on here as well as physically around you.
Something my IC told me once, don’t focus on what you’ve lost, instead try to think of what you gained. Hang in there!