I miss my best friend. I know that the woman that was once there has changed, but I sure do miss her. I miss coffee with her on Saturday mornings. I miss stroking her hair as she fell asleep. I miss waking up early and watching her sleep peacefully. I even miss the calls asking me to pick something up on the way home from work. Things have changed so rapidly for me that my mind has not had time to catch up. None of this makes any sense whatsoever.
How do you take your memories and feelings for your W and put them up on a shelf for safe keeping?
It's tough indeed. I know this well. It does get better over time but expect to have seemingly random things trigger "the lonely". For me having a routine helps. For example I adjusted my weekends so that the time that I used to have for spending time with W is now filled with other things. It still took me a while before I could wake up on a Sunday morning and look forward to the day. It's also helped me to have some good friends and my kids who I could reach out to when it got bad. I'd text D24 saying that I was feeling "the lonely" hard that day and she would send me back some pictures of her cats playing, or what she was doing.
On BD H52, W50 T27, M26 S21, D23 BD-9-Mar-16 D-15-Jan-18 Final-19-Apr-18 I am a storyteller. The story may do you no good. But a story is never for the listener. It is always for the one who tells
