Ongoing...

[RBG80]

Hey Jug,

Sounds Cheesy I know but just to be happy. How am I going to do that you may ask?...

That's the question isn't it. Changing my attitude is the first step. Knowing that I have no control over certain situations and trying to accept them for what they are is the most important thing I can do. I need to be kinder to myself and own the mistakes I have made.

I will be concentrating on what I can control. Changing my surroundings at home so there is no longer a visual reminder of the M - photos being replaced with photos of my S (so there is a positive visualisation instead). I'm also fixing up a bits in the house that need doing.

I've also added a small lamp to my bedside table so that I can read in bed and have a little time to myself lost in a book.

Finally, I continue to frequent the gym. I'm noting a real difference in the fit of my clothes and feel a whole lot better in myself.

This maybe the start of detachment as I feel that the lack of control is actually quite liberating. I'd love to have my W back, but will not be her safety net - We can only move forward under a new M, a rebirth of the relationship and until she sees this (if she ever does), I'll continue on my own path!