Wife has filed for divorce

[ngs]

Well actually spent about an hour in the same room, living room, last night and my wife was talking and even laughing a bit, mostly with the kids but sometimes she was actually talking directly to me although she avoids most eye contact. I would laugh as well and discussed and asked questions referring to things she was talking about. I know that means absolutely nothing and I read nothing into it as our marriage has been an absolute mess for so long, but it was just nice for at least a night to feel much less tension.

Also, I coach my son's floor hockey team and I wanted to take another son to a concert tonight and she offered to facilitate hockey practice for me so I took her up on that.

It's such a strange thing the hatred I feel from my wife towards me now, and I understand because I have not been a great husband at many points in our relationship, but she has never acted like she hated me before. She is having a lot of struggles herself with the divorce even though she wants it, I just wish that we could get along during the process to make it easier on everyone.

I am back to my positive self today and I will continue to get better everyday through this process and whatever my W decides in the end I will be a better person either way.

I'm thankful for this forum because it gives me a place to discuss/vent and I also get to see what others are going through and comment and maybe help them as well.