Wife has filed for divorce

[ngs]

So my wife and I really don't talk at all, I would love to but I just irritate her and make her angry because she doesn't want to be around me let alone be in a house with me. If it has something we need to talk about with the kids we do but even then she just acts irritable cause she doesn't want anything to do with me. The most talking we do is on Fridays when we are both home and kids are school and it is just her being angry with me and I just listen, keep my comments minimal but don't disagree with anything she says.

Such a struggle because I've always loved being around my wife but she is just angry and hateful anymore and has been progressing to this the last four years and she is so resentful of me now.

After she filed 10/21/16, a bit of anxiety went away not worrying about when/if she would file. But now the anxiety of going through the divorce process.

I am always happy and positive around the house, getting things done, interacting with the kids and all of this just irritates her more. Have not been the most happy, positive person in the past.

I have detached as much as possible still living in the same house. I don't ask her anything about what she is doing or where she is going, don't initiate many conversations with her. Last night she was happy, laughing with the kids only, I'm not included when she is happy sometimes feel like she thinks its going to be a competition with the kids which is sad.

Made comments last Friday "I'm not doing this to abandon my kids" and "I'm not the crazy one in this" or "I'm not crazy". Has said this a few times, I just agree and say "I know".

I'm sticking with DBing, staying positive, practice mindfulness daily, practice gratitude for all the good things in my life...not knowing what she is thinking and the unknowns of the situation get to me sometimes til I get back my positive thinking and drag myself back out of the pit.