I'd like to correct my last post. I'll keep DBing no matter what, if she were to file tomorrow I'd still be committed to working on myself so I shouldn't have associated the lack of formal divorce with whether or not I'll continue this journey. I will continue because I owe it to myself to be committed to a better me.
only your nickname implies it! you just keep in fightin'! I am very glad to see you doing it further, to keep on working and fighting because as you have said - you owe it to myself. you really do. I do understand very well what you've tried to say up there and that's definiely true!