I'd like to correct my last post. I'll keep DBing no matter what, if she were to file tomorrow I'd still be committed to working on myself so I shouldn't have associated the lack of formal divorce with whether or not I'll continue this journey. I will continue because I owe it to myself to be committed to a better me.
Hi Fightin. That's great to hear! We do only have one choice, to work on ourselves. I know that I have read so many books on relationships, psychology, meditation, happiness, self development etc that I am definitely becoming a better person from all the experiences in the marriage. Its been the catalyst for self-reflection, and its been (and still is) very painful, but without that pain its so very hard for most of us to grow.
No matter where my marriage ends up, I know that one day in the future I will look back and know that it was meant to happen, its what was needed on my personal journey. As of now, I hope that future still includes my wife in a new relationship with me, but either way we have to look forward...
Keep on working on you, you know you deserve it!
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03/15 : ILYBINILWY 10/15 : IDLYA 01/16 : "I'm sacrificing to stay in the marriage for the kids!" 10/16 : She discusses Seperation BUT...she's still here..for now
