[BrightFuture]

Thanks job, bttrfly, 2T for stopping by. Irish, thanks for checking on me, I can always count on you for that, LOL.

Job, thanks for the kind words. I’m trying to take it easy these days. Yes, clearly… it was a message for me to slow down… Ironically, this did give me an opportunity to focus on me and stop worrying about accommodating other people at my expense… I’m still stubbornly independent though and try to get by on my own… I got a soft shoe for driving and I can drive now! I went to the office last week for one day. It was tiring though… My leg was almost numb after driving in traffic in the morning, and I was very tired by the end of the day in the office wearing that boot… I made the case though… And confirmed from my manager that I can work from home until this boot is out! I am still planning to go to the office one day a week for some time… Just to make sure they see me there… Such a control freak I am about my work space, hahaha.

Bttrfly, yes, like I already mentioned, that was a clear message for me to slow down.

2T, I agree with you about slowing down and taking my time. Even though in real world I’ve already been taking it slow for the last 4 years. But, in MLC world it could be nothing… But I get it. It looks like it is on my terms anyway, since H is not doing anything one way or another. At this time, I’m not ready to take an action. But, I always have that option. Plan B sounds good. And it is moving on and living my life the way I like it!

Nothing much to report on H’s front except for a couple of things. It seems like he’s been doing NC on me, LOL. I’m pretty sure he knows about my foot situation, since he is friends with the same people on FB who replied to my post about my foot. He never acknowledged it though, not that I expected him to. I texted him Happy Veterans Day the other day, and he immediately replied… with thanks and then asking me if I received the credit card (the one we use for business)… I replied that I did. He then texted me that the card has a different number now and asked me if all the accounts associated with this card need to be updated. I sent him a few accounts I would remember of, and that I would update one of them. He replied with thanks. I guess I am still a keeper, LOL!

Then I saw his comments on one of our mutual friends FB post. The friend was upset with the elections, so H replied something like “time heals everything and it will heal this as well”. Mind you H is on the same side as this friend, politically, but felt compelled to give this friend a reassurance like that. Soooo….my thinking process was going on, hahaha… This comment made me analyze again (yes, guilty…) Does this comment reflect where H is in the process:
- He refers to his childhood and feels that the time is finally healing the bad things that happen to him (aka his parents’ divorce)
- He refers to the bad things that he had to heal from, a bad marriage and a terrible wife that he run away from… And now he is lot better.
- He refers to the things he’s done to our family and hopes that it will be eventually enough time to heal our wounds and forget what he’s done…
- Or, he feels that he’s done all the damage and also destroyed his life and now hopes that time will heal everything for everyone to move on, as there is no way back and not way restore what he’s lost…

I don’t have any clue anymore…

Oh, and so much for me having more time… Still busy at my work, and one of my consulting gigs has been very active recently. It is actually good, I need some extra money right now, as I am paying for my dog’s and my medical bills.