XW showing signs or just MLC script

[bttrfly]

As for your questions. Would I take her back? As time goes by the chance for that to happen gets smaller and smaller. As of December 31 2015 I closed a few windows and doors on XW. There might be a crack under the garage door but she would have to do so much.

I know exactly what you mean. I cannot imagine going back or taking him back. So much would have to change. I would absolutely not tolerate what I did before.

What I feel about her? It's a mixture of emotions. Feeling sorry for her comes and go's, what she is missing in the girls lives is gone. She will not be able to relive because time doesn't stand still. That hurts my heart. Love, because she was my love. I feel like she passed on and I am unable to mourn her death. An emptiness that will take a while to fill.

Honey have you thought about having a memorial service for her? I know that sounds maybe odd, but doing so helped me tremendously. I was truly able to let go of the man I married and look at him now as almost a different person, no less dear - just different.

One emotion about her I haven't felt in a long long while is hate. I don't hate her.No anger towards her at all any more.

Good. I think those who stay stuck in that phase of the process are in some odd way keeping the relationship tied to them, but through negativity rather than love. Damaging stuff. Hasn't enough damage been done already? Glad you aren't stuck and are healing.

Forgive her. I have already. I forgive her for what she did to me. Can I forgive her for what she did to our girls. Answer is NO. I would still have a long way to go for that to happen, and it doesn't look good. She would have to do so much work to rebuild her relationship with them. If by miracle she did that and was a Mom of all moms to them again. I would.

BINGO: This is my sticking point also, and I will be very honest with you, this is something I sometimes agonize over. I so want to forgive him for what he's done to our son and my elderly parents, and his own mom and step dad, but mostly my son. He deserved so much more from us both.. I know I need to forgive my stbxh for my own sake, because I don't want to be tied to him through a lack of forgiveness. I just keep working on it.

sounds like you had a good weekend tho Irish. Yeah, son blew off chore day here too. That's ok once in a while. Hope you also have a good week... the next few days will be full moon fall out, so brace yourself Bridgit, lol xoxoxoxo