Phase 2 contd (2)

[Pax_luv]

Thank you all for that "validation" I needed. I don't want to come off as a jerk and I'm just now truly believing and trusting that I did not cause this, that I am a good person, and I have to have faith that I am on this journey for a reason.

I loved being married and I look forward to having a family with a good man someday. I think by doing all the instrospective work that I've done, it hasn't hardened me against marriage in the future. I know with 100% conviction that I want to be married again and this time i have a million more tools in my tool box. I trust that I will find someone that actually values me and what I bring to the table. I trust that I will find someone who I also respect and value. Im starting to think this really is stbxh's loss. I'm ready to say good riddance.

So, stbxh has gone from angry/ nasty to completely silent. I still see him twice a week for dog swap... And the last two swaps have been completely silent. No eye contact and no words from him. Today he even hid behind the door. i still try to be my cheery and breezy self regardless of his reaction.

What is going on in that head of his? Bleh.