She moved out...now the work begins...II

[SBJ]

Long weekend away was kind of nice. The down side to whitetail hunting is that there is alot of time by yourself with time to meditate and think. I wish I could say that I had an epiphany during the weekend, but I did not.

When I arrived home my three kids were all at my house. It was nice to see my oldest, but he wanted to talk. It seems that he has picked up on how fast things are going in the D direction with my W. He said that things seem a bit odd at how happy she seems about everything happening. We only got to talk for a little while, but it seemed like he is just as confused as I am. I told him that I would not talk about alot of what is going on with him, but that I was concerned about his mother and did not want her getting hurt.

The oldest had to head back to school, so my two youngest wanted to go to the movies...great time had by all.

I am still confused about all of what is going on, but I feel that I am coming to a place of acceptance.
Acceptance that:

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[*] I am not the one causing this.
I am not the one wanting out of our marriage.
This is her divorce.
I own my part of our marriage and realize that I can be a better man & husband.
I am willing to make our M work if that is what she wants to do.
I will stand for my M for as long as I can...and pray that God will let me know how long that is.
I have to detach from her.

I hope all are well...have a great day.