Noooo, Obi-Pinn Kenobi, you are my only hope, please don't give up now!
You have come such a long way, but I think you might be stuck in LBS mode and have been DBng your heart out for so long you have become a DB master but letting your W back in to your new life is going to be tough. I know it's expensive bit even just three sessions with a DB coach either just for you it together might help you with taking the next step....
Me - 47 H - 45 D-16 M - 6 years Separated - May 16
Don't leave me behind can't you see me I'm shining... (Years & Years - 'Shine')